The Unpublished post

The days went slow and the nights creeped away painfully slow

The nights were the worst the living

Nightmares and living moments haunted me

In the midst of it all , i found the twinkle of an eye

I found my energy again

I smiled

The smile in your face

A little click on the phone and I felt pretty , beautiful and amazing again

Voice of an angel

So sweet and melodious

And the flutes kept me going on my iTunes each day -on repeat

And i laughed a ringing laugh

I feared the basic thing that drives a person forward, ambition, love and money.

But there was this misty fresh air blowing behind my face

An inspiration

And a hand to hold me and guide along the right direction

In time

I wondered if the games were games

I felt foolish at my own folly

A night in the rain and i was falling hard or maybe i already did, shit.

I was scared. And i always will be

I felt too close.

And i closed my eyes , in a moment of sadness, and a whisper of the name

We Loved, We lost.

We Loved, We lost.
It was difficult, we fought like a married couple, but deep deep down, somewhere and always, I thought we were there for each other.
There was, Is this Un-breakable thought "What ever happens, we are for each other and always"
You know that empty feeling in the stomach you have when you have a free fall ?
I cry at times, I think of the happy times, the simple and sweet times, when the touch of my hand would light up your face and a whiff of your scent were sweet reminders that you were close to me,
The blueness of your hoodie still keeps me safe with the two pretty pillows that i always wanted from you.
I remember ironically the last time was the first time i asked anything from you.
I hold on to my phone, checking your last check in time into whatsapp, wondering if you had blocked me yet, confused about where it all went wrong.
Unable to break away from the thought, When everything is over you will be back to me.
But i do not know if until then i can handle the free fall, The emptiness everytime i reach out to that spot in my mind.
I delude myself at times still believing we are together.
I replay all the times we had,all the cute little smiles you gave me , how you used to look at me and you calling me "princess"
Lowest blow ever.

These moments are dark, and when i get out of them i do not know who i will be , but i know i will still love you, but i am afarid to take a step forward, i am afraid to look backwards, your words hurt me, badly.
You looked me in my eye and told me you didnt love me.
I cried, You saw.
I was lost...
You looked lost, I knew something was up... all the love we had wouldn't just go somewhere, i had faith.
Maybe you are just no alright now, But you punish me instead.

I wake up some mornings, feeling strong , 60 seconds later it's free fall and the sun damps.
nights are the worst, we used to talk everyday and believe in some many things, for now all is lost.

A year and more

Its been over a year , and You have been more to me than anyone could wish for.

Its has been strings in the wind to and fro

loads of love and loads of arguments,

I love the days we stay up till 4 am in the night just because we dont want to stop hearing each other's voice

yet there are many days we dont know what to talk about

A little silence.

A comfortable silence.

Music in our lives

its rock and roll one day, classical the next , Pink floyd one day , Rahman the next and System of down the next,

But what matters is we sing it along however bad we are at it

We try our best to make it better each day

We may feel like it gets worse each day

But winter comes before spring, Like what Robert Frost says

Love doesn't fade with time, I don't believe in that, instead if anything , it strengthens,

but only because it understands.

I do not know if i have been perfect enough for you, even when i scream at yu, 

I want you to know I regret is even as the fight goes on.

I want you to know i try hard

I give up a lot o time, unlike you i do not have the patience or the perseverance, Nevertheless , 

you have always been there to show me what is to be us.

We cannot give up not because we cannot handle it

We cannot give up only because it is too precious to let go 

Remember what a certain someone told us by his terrace?

Love doesn't fail in the most difficult of the stances even though it may seem so.

I want you to know this

Having a life on my own doesn't mean i dont love you as much as you.

Just believe in me.

I breathe for that.

 Coffee isn't special without you

Chocolates are everything when you give it to me

The sunset is prettier with my head on your shoulder

Dreams are for You

Anger is not elemental without you as the reason

Eyes are Lightless without your eyes

Mornings are for I love yous

Life is for You

Cuz yu are mine

Love you

Little things and the bigger picture

A little piece of string

Every sew of a pattern

Every Voice in a musical

Every sound of Nature

Every single chord in music

Every single drop of purity

Every little word

Every little thought

Every little moment

Golden little things 

Make up the smaller things of life 

Create the bigger picture

Paint the world

Paint your world and mine

Every single moment of life

Every second

Every minute

Every Hour

Every day 

Forever albeit the promise of imperfection

Melt my heart 

https://soundcloud.com/achuthravi/another-month-passd-by

Whispers of Your Name

அன்று  உன்  முகம் பார்த்தேன் 

என் கனவை கலைதை 

புதிதாய் பொற் கனவுகள் 

புதிய மனம் 

வாணன் சிறிய சிறகு முளைத்தது 

உன் விழியன் அழகொளியில் 

Andru Un Mugam Parthen 

En Kanavai Kalaithaye 

Puthiya Manam 

Vanan Chiriya Siragu Mulaithathu

Un Viziyin Azagoliyil 

Whispers of a name 

The curls of your beard

The curve of your lips

A breath from Your heart

A brightness of the eye

A kiss of your Love

Dandelions in the wind

Music in my soul 

Past, Present, Future

I Fall So Hard 

<3

Chu

Curious characters in my life
and i have no idea how i came to know this one.
He goes "Vaaaar" "Vaaar"
And the first person to shorten my already short name.
 sigh lazy ass.

People tell "yu have soo many best friends?"
One can never have too many and this one does stand out and remains special in my heart
Another Bangalore Ass, but a sucker for Chennai.

Yea I love yu and your a sweet little "short" thing.
(correct me if i am wrong)

You are good.
direct statement,
good.

Chamathu poruma? :D

For all those days yu made sure i was alright, for all those irritations that yu bore with and yu still will.
I guess we can not stop fighting, but they are cute :)
and i love the fights.
And maybe they will help u too (*winks*)

And when yu do start earning half a crore per annum do not forget me Mr.Director sir,

or rather i wont let yu.
U know that.

There are so many lots of things i would love to tell, and i could fill in pages , but yu are very very special :)

i hate yu chu dog :')
and yu are a lame hugger -.-
-hugs-
And yu are my Bessshtie :)

Stolen Moments

We sit in peace

A silent hum of a song

Holding hands

At the top of our world :)

Moments of stolen memories

Memories to hold on forever

A perfect gem

Encased in life

An understanding silence

Envelopes the starry skies

Unspoken words

A smile on our faces

Through thick and thin

Hard and fast

Real and demons of the mind

Always and Forever

Precious.

Cherished. 

And something to hold to.

Starry skies and the Sun's glow :)